why should i care? 'cause you weren't there when i was scared.

let's have a very quick update and then i'm off again because i really don't care about this tbh

it's half term. i'm going to see my cousins on thursday. i'm going to see funeral for a friend + a movie on wednesday. i may or may not be going to a sleepover on saturday. it all depends on whether i'm back from yorkshire. i've repierced my ears. they've stopped hurting. there is no infection. i may or may not have an infection in the hole in my neck. that's from a panic attack, not self harm, thanks. i'm going to the doctor on tuesday to find out what's wrong with me regarding the panic attacks.

you know, i'm really a bit tired of this whole blogging situation. if you want to know about me, you should ask me what's going on with me. i have no interest in talking to an empty space.

I'm Not the Same Kid.

...Yeah.
Nothing to say really. I'm good.
Laters.

kamikaze airplanes in the sky

i've slept properly the past two nights, i've just successfully completed an order for clothes online without freaking out, i'm hopefully attending one of jreed's writing workshops which he's trying to rearrange so that i can attend, i'm closer now to my parents + family than i've ever been and i'm actually not dreading school too much now.

life is goooood (:

txo

hi i'm tilly and i write about forbidden gay unicorn love.

If We're All Alone, Aren't We In This Together?

I like this song. It's by October Fall. Barely anyone's heard of them, which is sad, because their album was pretty good.

-take my innocence away, we'd barely notice anyway.

i figure that i need to do A Proper Blogpost for once.
Right, this week.
I've met up with Luke and Emma this week. It was good. I didn't realise how much I'd missed either of them. Luke and I met this crazy cat lady who showed us her ducks and so we called her cat Tabitha. She was pretty cool. Emma and I had a picnic. It was fun. I like Emma. She's cool.
I went a bit weird on Dan & Lorren that night though - I'm not sure whether it was the fact I'd been drinking that night or whether everything just got to me. It's all been a little stressful to be honest. I think only Dan, and maybe Lorren, know the whole thing really. They're cool.

-i don't want to be anything you forget.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. And I think I've made up my mind. But yeah, I dunno. I think it's too late.

-they won't forget you in the end.

That's just life.

five favourite...

songs this week

wild world - cat stevens

"it's breaking my heart that you're leaving,
baby i'm grieving"

share it with me - family force five

"you've already broken my heart.
i'd like to keep at least one piece."

hot mess - cobra starship

"got me hypnotized
the city's your play ground"

your call - secondhand serenade

"i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to."

here it goes - jimmy eat world

"lights go down
everything is yours to lose"

'cause when you're fifteen, someone tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them.

THIS IS NOT AN UPDATE.

STORIES OF FAME
http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2560251/2/High_School_The_Bet
"TJ shrugged. "He's upset that you didn't tell us you were gay earlier."
Rodgers frowned. "I wasn't gay earlier."
TJ shook his head. "You really are hopeless, you know?""

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2322849/1/FrankInLove
"He didn’t kiss Flea or Gill, but I couldn’t blame him. Kissing Flea on the cheek would probably make him cough up a hairball later, and I figured kissing Gill would be kind of slimy. And anyway, I was his best friend.
He started kissing me on the cheek whenever we’d meet up, and I got a little weirded-out again until I remembered that I was a cool, modern guy. Lots of European guys did that kissy double-cheek thing when they met up, like Italians. Italians were still manly. They had coliseums and stuff."

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2641144/1/CharlieHorse_and_the_Jolly_Green_Giant
""What are you guys doing here? This is so crazy that you're all here, and I'm here, too, huh? Anyways. What's up?" Cindy asked. The boys, who were not expecting anyone they knew (let alone Cindy) were thoroughly weirded out. Charlie thought that she must be stalking him (what if she was trying to make sure that he was eating the gingerbread house because she laced it with date-rape drugs?), and Mario thought that she must be the craziest bitch he had ever met (who the hell gives her crush gingerbread houses and follows him into the woods to try to seduce him?). Mario leaned over to whisper into Charlie's ear."

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2430890/1/Kiss_me
"I blink and smile giddily to myself. From across the office, I notice Jimmy by the coffee machine stupidly flashing two thumbs up at me; probing me for an answer. I grin and repeatedly nod at him while stupidly flashing two thumbs up back at him.
We probably look like two drop dead gorgeous maniacs, but who cares? The editor-in-chief and sub-editor-in-chief are celebrating."

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2475090/1/Click_Click_Click
"Darel Coffman isn't sure he should bother. It hasn't been mentioned, not once sense he'd woken up in Matt's bed, walked home trying to revive his decency, but it's been bothering him like a sleeping foot for five years. Hiding really isn't his thing, hence the six foot poster of the U.S.S. Enterprise (plus support vehicles) in his dorm room, but Matt doesn't want the beans spilt; doesn't want people to know he's been tonsil searching with the biggest nerd since George Lucas for over five years."


yes, they are slash. don't like it, don't deal, but all of these writers are incredibly talented. i pick them for their talent, not their content. they deserve a few minutes of your attention.